i just feel like not caring. about anything. especially at times when even the smallest insignificant things crawl up my nerves. i just feel like it would be great if someone could just attach a string to the back of my neck and drag me like a rag doll through life and everything else that seems to be on the way. wouldnt care if i get snagged open or my insides are falling out. i just dont care. i dont want to care. every single element just seems to become so. damn. bleak.